Being a Dad - Month 2

It has now been two months since the birth of my twin boys. It's hard to believe--they are growing so fast. They look very different than they did just a month ago. While by no stretch of the imagination do I have a grasp on this "dad thing", I do have a little better understanding of what it means to be a dad. At least now I can do "fatherly duties" like change a diaper (in less than 5 minutes), change a kid's clothes, and feed and burp a baby and get him back to sleep at 3 a.m. I've also learned how to deal with sheer frustration due to excessive sleep deprivation. No one can prepare you for those sleepless nights--it's something you have to experience on your own.

My wife says I still have lot to learn when it comes to child-rearing. She says I'm "not comforting enough" when taking care of the boys. I guess I still don't know what I'm doing. But, I like to think I'm getting a little better every day. I love them so much, but don't always know how to express it. It's hard to always know what to do when your kid is screaming at the top of his lungs for no apparent reason, or staring blankly at you like he has no idea who you are.

This past weekend I spent a lot of time with the kids and really got to enjoy them. It took a little while to grasp, but I finally understand the concept that it's "not about me anymore". Nothing I want matters--it's about the boys and taking care of them. Their needs outweigh anything else. I have to say, I love taking care of their needs. Nothing makes me happier than seeing them smile (which they're starting to do). I can't wait to watch them grow. Being a dad is awesome!